A Conversation with God

I found this article posted in the office news board, I found it worth-sharing, so here. :)

Me: God can I ask you a question?

God: Sure.

Me: Promise You won’t get mad?

God: I promise.

Me: Why did you let so much stuff happen to me today?

God: What do you mean?

Me: Well, I woke up late.

God: Yes.

Me: My car took forever to start.

God: Okay.

Me: At lunch, they made my sandwich wrong and I had to wait.

God: Hmmmmm.

Me: On my way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call.

God: All right.

Me: And to top it all off, when I got home I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager and relax. BUT, it wouldn’t work! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?

God: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning and I had to send one of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that.

Me: (humbled) OH.

God: I didn’t let your car start because there was a drunk driver in your route that would have hit if you we re on the road.

Me: (ashamed)

God: The first person who made your sandwich to day was sick and I didn’t want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn’t afford to miss work.

Me: (embarrassed) Okay.

God: Your phone went dead because the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn’t even let you talk to them so you would be covered.

Me: (softly) I see, God.

God: Oh, and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn’t think you wanted to be in the dark.

Me: I’m sorry, God.

God: Don’t be sorry, just learn to trust Me–in all things, good and bad.

Me: I will trust You.

God: And don’t doubt that My plan for your day is always better than your plan

Me: I won’t God. And let me just tell you, God, thank You for everything today.

God: You’re welcome, child. It was just another day being your God and I love looking after My children.

…is what I truly need to have right now and each and everyday.

These past few days, as you may know, I’m having quite a hard time with myself. I got a lot of questions left unanswered, words left unsaid and things left to do, then. I still do, though, I’m better off a bit now. Later on I realized, I haven’t had my one-on-one talks and date with my Dad since the last week of the last month. :( Sad, I know, and it made me empty.

The only thing that would fill and complete me is when I come to His presence humbly and honestly. And I wouldn’t want to delay myself on that because as the days drag on and I don’t take heed on His words, it keeps making me weak. It’s like whatever I do, it holds no importance.

Yes.

So, thank you for praying for me. God is always at work and is starting with my heart and soul. I just need to push myself a lot more and then, everything will be fine again.

Please pray for me some more, okay? :)

P.S.: I’ll be back on hardcore blogging this March. See you all again sooooon!!!

And oh, before I forgot. Here is my moodboard for the month of February.

Go. Be You.

xoxo,

Ninsy

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Jireh 101

Last Sunday, after almost one year of saving (talk about salaries and all that first-job-firsthand-money-and-budgeting experience), I was able to buy my own laptop!

Oh sweet niblets! The thought that you actually got something out of your blood, sweat and tears. Well, what this really is? A blessing. I won’t be able to afford this if not for the Big Guy up there who gave me a job and a mom who helps me (she’s firm) with the whole ‘saving’ thing. And look at what obedience brought–if only I had started and not get all too magastos, I would’ve had this since last year. But I didn’t. So this must be the right time.

I only got this laptop back from the technician today. Yesterday, actually, it’s already Saturday. I gave it to him Tuesday and got it back Friday. I am just starting to explore the gadget now–and this OneNote here is new to me. It’s can be your one stop, one notebook for all your agendas (what I love is that you can blog from here–wicked coolness!). I gotta say that it’s cool, though.

Here, look…

Anyhoooz, granny goose…

As you well know, if you are my friend, I love to name my things. For me, naming them gives more connection and ownership (plus the sentimental value). I made sure that the names that I give to my things have their meanings because their names define them. Or sometimes not. I’m crazy like that. For example, my phone’s name is Given–I didn’t buy it, it was ‘literally’ given by mother way back second year college. Hence, the name. Another is Viktor, my iPod, which was gifted by my aunt from Japan for graduation–it’s a victorious feeling to finish college and so does having a Steve Job work of art at your fingertips. I also got Selah, an mp3 which I’m not using anymore :(; Mini Cooper, my USB who seemed to broom away to the where-are-you-now land since I always forgetting it at the computer cafes until I finally had lost it; Jurassic, the I think oldest IBM laptop model given by my other aunt which crashed down just last month :(; and other things, like our neighbour’s cat which I changed the name from Tikyo to Snowball. Ha!

And so, what do you expect for me to think when I got this laptop? The name. :)

I don’t know what to name it at first. I got a couple of choices: Amal, Axel, Someday, Blessing, Favor (but I got to eliminate this because my aunt’s car was named such, so it’s a drop-off). One name did stand out, it’s from my friend Mari, and it’s Jireh.

Jireh is very common name in the Hebrew language which means ‘it is provided’. And our good Lord is named Jehovah Jireh, a provider. And I believe that He provided this for me, ergo, dear internet, meet Jireh! :P

Me and this guy will have one too many getting-to-know-you moments. Hihi.

For this, and all the undeserved blessings, thank You Big Guy! Fistbump.

Backbeat.

Hello dear blog! I missed writing random thoughts and feelings and whatever else I got to say in my mind. I’m kinda got it stuck these past few days.

I’m having an emotional-slash-mental battle still going on, you see. I have this major decision to do and I’m competing with myself—something’s terribly wrong is happening with me right now. It’s hard to explain, though. And, I dunno what to do, really. Well I know but I don’t know. I guess one’s self is the hardest opponent of all. Since I’m emotionally unwell, I cannot give full focus on writing/blogging/whatever else I’m doing; hence, the blog hiatus. There’s a lot of tension and drama going inside me.

With all of that being said, I’m requesting for all of you to pray for me a littl lot more. If you could please include me, I would be really grateful.

I don’t know how long I’d be like this (pero sana it ends soon na) but I’m gonna try to be more positive and do the usual things I’m doing in this blog. I’m hoping you’ll help me to cheer up myself quite more.

Dear Self, please do what you need to do; do it ASAP and please, choose wisely.

Anyhoooz, from this point forward, I’ll try to get back to my blog duties. Everything will be alright.

*and this is the part where I should insert a smiling face*

Here you go. Cheers. :)