Dear Rez Toledo

Hi, I’m Kriselle. You don’t know me, but, I had been a fan of your craft since the early 2011s.

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Being the radio junkie that I am, when there’s a new song that comes up and it’s good, I always take a mental note of it. Most of the time, the music that I took note of either got my soul on its lyrics, its rhythm or both. And I happen to bumped with your Hey Daydreamer song that came out on the radio in that first quarter of 2011 and it grew on me.

At that time, I really thought it was something from Owl City. However, I had to rethink it again since my guesses and the voice on the song don’t match. And so, I had to scratch out Adam Young from the equation. But I’m positive that it’s something foreign until you appeared and played live at Magic’s Top 5 at 5 (now PopStop). Upon seeing you, the looks of sincerity in the way you deliver your song (plus your charm), I instantly loved HD more.

Well, HD is not the type of a song with a very metaphorical lyrics (the types of songs that I like) but it just makes you feel light. It’s something fresh. It’s electro pop and OPM (!!!). And the fact that it was only arranged and written by one person was amazing; that was pure talent I saw there and that made me decide to track down what could be in store for this new band: Somedaydream.

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I always liked the name of your one-man band. When you were getting all the attention from the music scene, I felt that the words Somedaydream was an encouragement for yourself and everyone that they could also, one day, achieve what they had worked and dreamed of. And you, you were living your passion – music. I hope you know that you had inspired many. You always kept your feet on the ground, appreciating and messaging your fans whenever you can – that made them (us) appreciate you more. I guess, you always knew the value of giving and sharing your time to people.

I had never been this much of a fan to other OPM artists out there before. Although I am a fan of some, I never really followed them like the way I had followed you. I’m not sure what made me do so but I think I do a lot of spontaneous and cray things whenever my Inspirational Tank is filled – at some point, you made it overflow. I got this thing for people who inspire others to be their best and I’ve seen that in you; you “inspired” me to be my best. And that’s why, I think, I considered myself a Dreamer (the way you address your supporters) and there’s a lot of work to be done to achieve thy dreams.

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You are now in a new state of your life where you are making decisions based on your courage and your principles. The day you wrote back to your supporters, updating them on what’s gonna happen next, we were all thrilled since you had been in too long of a break. You were in a lighter mood in that letter, disclosing all your previous and future plans and your decision to release your last Somedaydream album. Believe me, I am giddy to see it but I also wished that you would prolong its release; because once you do release it, we might not see Somedaydream anymore. Sometimes, I just don’t like the idea of losing something of great value. At least for me, and to your other supporters. I think, the music industry needs something of a fresh vision, of a young mind, of a new face – people like you.

Yesterday, your follow-up announcements included your new song and your statement:

Finally, this will be my last contribution to “OPM”. After this, it’s official: I am not “OPM”.

I don’t know how to react when I read this. It makes me sad. Your new song (After Tonight) makes me sad too, especially the lines,

It’s alright, you won’t see me after tonight
Let’s bury our memories of you and I singing under the stars
It won’t mean thing a to me, to you
To you, it won’t mean a thing to you

I don’t know if I got the lyrics right but I’m just so sad to see you go. :( Minsan, medyo OA ako, pero na-sad kase ako talaga.

Even when you wrote that song in 2010, I felt every line of it today. Being a symbolic person that I (too) am, even I think this is quite a love song, I felt that this is you saying goodbye. I just want you to know that I don’t understand your whole reason yet. Or, I just don’t want to understand it at all. #whyRezwhy

All good things come to an end. I’m hanging to your words: we can start a new movement. Your leaving, I guess, is a birth for a new beginning. We know (hope) that you’ll be back, although not as Somedaydream, but someone who is in the process of helping and reaching out for somebody else to reach their dreams — for themselves, for the people they care for, for their passion and for our local music industry.

Somedaydream will always always mean a thing to me, to us. It will mean a thing to us. :)

Godspeed, man!

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The Ills of New Media (Abuse, Addiction, Hazards)
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Wired World: Understanding New Media
by Mighty Rasing (youth worker, blogger and new media practitioner)

Mixing Faith and Facebook: Understanding New Media
by Rei Lemuel Crizaldo (Communication Research Specialist)

The Gospel in a Tweet: Evangelism and New Media
by Caloy Diño (FEBC Director for Corporate Planning)

Tips on Creating Quick Videos for Social Media Ministry
by Ms. Kathleen Lei Limayo (Independent Filmmaker)

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The Insides: Dissected

Ever since I was a young blogger, I had always dreamed of the what’s-inside-my-bag post! HAHA! Sobrang jologs pero yes. I shall make that dream into reality now. I was supposed to create the post months ago but I was busy then, anyways. Are you ready? #game

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I bought this bag more than a year ago at Egg. Pre-buying this, I am always on a backpack moment which I really enjoyed since I have all of my things inside it (minsan kahit I wear super formal, I’m on backpack lol). But, dalaga stage comes once in your life and you got to surrender to what it needed you to do, fashion-wise. HAHAjk!

I liked this bag since it has compartments and bigger space than an ordinary bag which can accommodate the laptop that I bring to the office everyday. Since I got (almost) everything inside my bag, it’s always heavy: two to four kilos heavy estimate. When people try to bring my bag for me, they always complain about how heavy it is or what do I have inside it that makes it weigh like that. I am here to assure you, I bring no hollow blocks or any form of bakal inside. Haha!

My bag is such a mess. Here you go, judge yourself.

Up first, the essentials.

090This wallet was a keepsake from my Japanese cousin back in March when they came to visit Philippines. They knew that my mother and I are collecting Stitch items and so they gave us wallets – STITCH wallets!! My mother got the brown one and I got this white one. This has fewer compartments than the Coach wallet I’m using before. BUT Stitch is Stitch and I love love love this wallet! Ain’t it so cute???

097Aside from a wallet, I always have a coin purse since I am not a fan of taking out your whole wallet just to get your fare money to pay the jeep. :) this one is a gift from my DGroupmate Nayra (yay)!

094I don’t have a lot of keys. I only got three for the Office and two for our House. Oh, say hello to another Stitch right there! :D

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My umbrella is in fuchsia (not my favorite color). I never intended to buy it last March but when the rain threaten to soak you wet, you don’t have much of a choice, right? I just bought this at 7-eleven for P180! So far, it survived for more than three months now.

096Philippine weather is in transition from summer to rainy months; therefore, it’s also important to protect your eyes when Mister Sun shines so bright after an hour of heavy rain. It can happen! In our country, it is possible! Better prepared than sorry. Lol.

When I bought this pair at F21, it doesn’t include a case with it. The solution? Improvise an old Artwork paper bag into an eyeglass holder (haha)! But I’m planning to buy a decent pouch for this one, it’s very vulnerable in its paper holder. Lol.

092These are some “admin” things that I bring with me every time since we don’t go to the office frequently anymore. I need to have it with me because it helps calm my nerves when I needed something for work but I won’t go to the office; it’s always nice to know that it’s just inside your bag. Haha! Babaw.

I also got my Cattleya Steno notebook so I can jot down important details for work; 2013 Planner so I’m not lost with our office schedules on trainings, workshops, etc etc; book (when I took this photo I’m finishing Joshua Harris’ I Kissed Dating Goodbye, I wrote about it here) which I love to read while traveling to and fro office or field.

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091I always bring my laptop with me and I think it is the major reason why I have a heavy bag. Lol.

I got two pouches and a pencil case. The pink pouch is dedicated for everything kikay although I’m not really the type who makes sure she looks fresh every single time. Most, if not all, girly items are gifted so I just always have it inside my pink pouch. We may never know the right time to use these weapons, right? Hehe. The black pouch is intended for everything wire-y. Lol. The pencil case, well, you know what’s inside a pencil case right? Yeah, I have there pens, pencil/eraser, paste (this is useful haha), USB and paper clips!

That’s all! That’s all I have inside my bag. And sometimes I still wonder if all those things really weigh that much. Haha! Share your bag on the table, what’s inside yours? :)

 

 

Small Things

I was at the Bureau of Internal Revenue (BIR) today, yesterday and last week. I had been fixing something for our organization regarding this new BIR policy on official receipts and invoices for business owners. The old ORs/invoices will be invalid starting July 1, hence, new ones are needed to be printed out before the end of this month; those who won’t be able to comply will be penalized with P20,000-P50,000 (that’s A LOT of money especially for small business and NGOs huhu). I think the BIR wasn’t able to communicate this information properly with the business owners even though they’re telling the news that it has been proclaimed six months ago (we only knew about this policy at the end of May). What’s kind of more  frustrating about it is that they are not going to extend the deadline. Talk about mercy! Dear Lord, please help our organization not get penalized. (please pray for us too — the processing of papers, printing of new receipts before deadline; we can’t afford to be penalized)

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Sometimes I just wanna complain because of all this “messengerial” duties that I’m doing now and in the previous months. There would be moments that I would think that this is not what I’m supposed to be doing since it was never a part of my job-description nor it was a course that I finished in College. And there would also be moments where I ask myself if this is what I’m worth?

Before I get too succumbed by all the lies in my head, I had to snap out of it by renewing my perspectives in life.

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Most people don’t understand my field of work — they don’t really get it. I totally understand them since I myself took my time in figuring out all the whys I had in mind.

If you must know, I am working as a Program Officer for a non-government organization (NGO) for two years now. I had tendered my resignation last February of this year but I’m still extended up to this time.

Six months back, aside from being a Program person, my boss requested if I could do the admin stuff in the office since our Admin Officer resigned then. At first I thought it was easy, but boy, I was so wrong! (!!!) It was never anything that I thought it would be. It got me at the verge of insanity at some point. HAHA. Added to that, I was doing most of the messengerial errands already (long story…). Admin work is fine but messengerial? To be honest, I don’t like it. I felt that I don’t deserve to be one.

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Here’s a thing about humility: Jesus washed the feet of His disciples.

I don’t know when or what particular month in those six months that I felt peace in what I’m doing as a Program/Admin/Messengerial person at the office. I’m always praying to God that He will always guide me wherever I go or whatever I do because I wanted to please Him and obey Him. And I know I had failed many times, but I kept praying for a heart that is willing to be used by Him everyday anyways.

There were times that I felt that I’m not appreciated in spite of what I’m doing but I’m thankful that the Lord gives grace to people like me who could really be sunk at being too self-absorbed.

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In my two years in an NGO, I can say that I learned a lot. It was and is a great ride. I can’t even narrate in words how much growth I had experience ever since. It was wonderful. Galing ni Lord kung san Niya ko nilagay, ngayon ko lang narealize!

I was strengthened intellectually and emotionally throughout the whole course of being a Program Officer. I had no clue and I started from scratch but see, the Lord got my back on the most confusing times of my life at the work place. #iSurvived It was amazing now that I think of it. (I’ll have to have a separate post on the learnings I had working with the people in an NGO.)

One of the pivotal moments though was doing the Admin/Messengerial work — the things I considered of “small” importance when it was not. I gained new appreciation for them. It was different. Imagine, they take care of a company’s government duties and all! I mean, we must not look on them as if we’re much greater than them because we are in a higher position. NO. That mindset is wrong.

It reminded me so much how small people (like me) matter in the plans of God. There are big people, yes, but they also needed the small people. We need each other. We compliment each other’s strengths and weaknesses. That no matter what your role in life is, you have occupy a space here on earth and therefore: you matter.

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The small things are not always the smallest when it comes to greatness of impacts. Small doesn’t mean less. There might be difference in sizes, difference in roles played, difference in circumstances and it all boils down on how you’ll see the small things in the bigger picture of life.