Houston, We Got a Situation

The past weeks were a combination of confusions, decisions, realizations and now-what-I-shall-do-sions week. Just crazy.

Prayer and fasting week was indeed a truly blessed week. However, I must confess that I have not finish the fast. From the fifth to seventh day, I was in struggle. And still am. You know how I’m so much of a Filipino? Do you know ningas kugon? I think I have mastered that attitude. And it’s truly bad. :( It’s only the start of the month and yet I am not doing what I should on my Make-My-Daddy-Proud-path. I am such a disappointment to myself and to the Big Guy. And I know I got to change. Dear Change, why you so hard on me?

You know how sometimes, I just felt that I lost my sense of Discipline. I always remember, growing up, I will always do my best in school–I would memorize everything for the exams and as much as I could I would perfect all my quizzes and do my part on recitations. Then, everything seems to change when I was on my high school senior year to college to now. I dunno what happened. I seemed to be very relax, very petics. And I feel like I’m losing all the hype of being one disciplined child. Boo me. I know.

What I’m trying, and I think I should push myself really hard on the word TRY, to do now is to regain all those senses of hardcore discipline. The type where I will not just talk about what I’m gonna do, instead, I will DO it. Man, I am one struggling woman in every aspect of life! For realzz. I must not deal in the mud for too long, it’s time to get up. And by getting up, it means, it’s time to move on.

Somebody once said, your time on earth is your life. You should not waste your time. And yes, I won’t. I’m gonna invest a hundred percent on discipline now. Ha! Dad, I really (badly) need Your strength and grace to carry me on this.

And with that, I’m gonna give you my moodboard for this January (because I’m so random like that). Whatever it is, let’s all JUST START.

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And if you could, please pray a little more for me. Thank you!

For a quick note, here’s what I did for my Sketchday Saturday.

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Credits to the tumblr photo, my inspiration to do this sketch. ;)

Moodboard: Dernier Cri

When I think about the past year that has gone, I can’t help but just to be thankful. The Big Guy has been really faithful to me and my family–no words can equate to the joy that He brought to my life. With that, I commit my 2012 as my Make My Daddy Proud Year. You see, that’s the least that I can do for ALL He has done in me and my family’s lives! :)

Alrighty! I really thought of doing this year’s up-faced, hopeful and all things positive moodboard, however, I ended up doing other than that. (I promise to make one of those usual moodboards I do before the month end, though.)

I am a fashion-forward-wanna-be. That being said, I always wanted to wear all those cool outfits by mix-matching clothes from my closet. But then again, I don’t have the luxury of having all those clothes and shoes I really wanted (and sometimes, I don’t have the guts) to wear inside my wardrobe yet. Somebody once even said that I dressed up as somebody living in the 90s year–I must’ve been really quirky when it comes to my porma. HAHA. Weirdo me. I have said this a thousand and over: I wanna be a Supermodel–since it looked like I won’t be that, I just enjoyed browsing/stalking fashion-bloggers’ blog and am truly inspired by them.

I blogstalk: the Glam chic, Cheyser Pedragosa’s The Walking Recessionista; the Classic lady, Camille Co’s Camille Tries to Blog; and ultimately the Boho girl Danika Rio’s Hello-rio! When I visit their blog, it’s like I relived childhood dreams of Malibu Barbie I am so inspired, not only by their edgy look but by their unique and dopeness attitude in whatever dress they wear. Promise, super fan lang drama ko! And because they inspired me, here are the grabbed photos I collected from their sites (I just collated all that I superrrr liked). I dunno. There’s something in those look-shots that give me a happy and calming aura–I look at them when I’m stressed, bored, or just wanna be truly cheered up!

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And we have here some New Year’s Fashion Tips from Camille Co.

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If you can’t wear them…just wear them in your dreams! HAHA. Drooling over some of those stuffs up on the moodboard over there. Gaaah!

Wear your attitude right. Spark your fashion…well, no matter what it is! ;)