After all the fireworks, the sparklers, the never ending jumps and shouts in a glee chorus greeting of Happy New Year’s, we are now here — all of us are given another shot in this Life to write whatever we wish, we plan, we pray for and intend to do with our own Jar of Chances this 2014. I hope we can make the most out of our hearts and our hands and create something fragile and beautiful that we would be able to look back and tell ourselves, “Finally, I made it. It’s worth the try. It’s worth the pain. It’s worth the experience.”
2013 was a very special year for me. There were
a lot of beyond great things I learned as Life grabbed me by the shoulders and bang me on the door of This Is What Surprise Looks Like. I almost lost my breath under the water of pressure, panic, worry and I Don’t Know Why All Of These Things Are Happening Right Now. It was all so surreal that it led me to different kinds of emotions which, sometimes, are all at one point at the same time. There was a time where I am in extreme level of calmness until five minutes later I’m boiling in extreme level of disappointment mixed with anger and all those rants teenagers do (and I’m not a teenager anymore hahaha).
Back then, I don’t understand everything that’s happening to me, I begged God to help me love where I am and what I do. And I thank Him because He never left my side during the days of my drama, my stubbornness, my ugly words and ugly thoughts, my impatience, my grumbles. I thank Him because He sustained me, pushed me and believed in me when what’s ahead of me is just some bleak reflection of confusion. Because yes, in 2013, I got some really dark periods because I chose to look at Life on the wrong side of the lens. There were no regrets, though, because all of the actions I took, the emotions I felt, the mistakes I did — they were mine, I own them. It’s just an amazing journey of grace that throughout all of it, you can end victorious. That although there were goodbyes and endings and some painful and sad fractions, there were also excitement and new beginnings and gratitude and hope. 2013 made me weak but God made me strong. It was the year He showered me a lot of Courage which I gladly bathe myself into.
My word for 2013 was Conquer. I don’t have an idea how I got into that word but as I’m looking back to how the past year turned out, I really did – by God’s grace – #conquered a lot of things and also got to taste the word #alive so much because 2013 left me breathless in a (mix of) good (and overwhelming) way:
- I rode an airplane (first time!!!) going to Bacolod to conduct Voter Education workshops;
- Conducted Voter Education workshops with different organizational partners;
- Learned and appreciated Administrative and Messengerial skills;
- Attitude of Gratitude never lets the joy of any person on empty;
- Attended the Global Discipleship Congress 2013 at our church;
- Watched The Script’s concert (!!!);
- Helped insolid Research Projects;
- Joined the March against Pork Barrel;
- Witnessed Nick Vujicic’s Unstoppable Faith – Live;
- Got a blogpost featured in a favorite OPM band’s Facebook page;
- Resigned from my first official job I came to love (this needed me to overdose on Insane Courage pills);
- Got accepted in my second job which I am starting to love;
- Rocked (haha) my short hair for a year (I’ll grow it long this 2014);
- Pursued some healthy exercise called Running and joined events which led me to meet Coach Rio (such an inspiring gentleman) and some other people who loves to keep an active lifestyle (I hope I can do it again this year);
- Attended my very first Better Story Project workshop and got to meet Isabel Garcia (!!!) and Julianne (!!!) and other beautiful ladies (I’ll do it again this year haha);
- Started writing my very first fiction which happens to be a Novel;
- Wrote lyrics for a friend’s melody composition – I was energized, I did the writing less than six hours haha;
- Have my hair colored in Medium Blonde, Level 7 in one random Saturday before my birthday;
- Met new friends who are all awesomely special;
- Met with old friends who are all wonderfully treasured.
The list can go on. I tried my best to keep every bullet simple even when most of it got its own glorious story behind how it happened.
For the year 2014, my word would be: Press(ing) On. This would be a year of Perseverance, of pursuing things with so much brave and faith in my heart. There are a lot of things I still wanna do and I pray that I could muster up courage again and do things that could make me feel my heart on my sleeve. It is a new blank page of Hope, of gazing at beauty and be awe-inspired by Life and what it can still slap in our faces with its promise that: Everything happens for a reason. Trust the struggle. Enjoy the moment. Keep pressing on!